Really I’m a slut?
Well, sex with James was hot and unexpected but I had never one with any friend. What prompted me to have done it – his helpless boozy condition or my fit of anger calling by his girl’s words about my slutty nature – I don’t know. James was a little confused after all and had begged pardon from me but I was satisfied though my heart was full of mixed feelings.
I felt hurt as my friend was thinking about my debauchery but for all that James started strip-show so just he was going to be my hot-lover in that evening. Sure I had known he was very upset and drunk but he should be more cautious and he shouldn’t let me tell with his girl who made me so burning with evil passion as if thousand of devils started to tear my soul to small shreds making me the mad fury. And I think her words about sex with my Rod were the last drop as I know – my love to him still strong although my life is full of new lovers but it’s only sex and no more.
It’s very unjustly if someone tells smutty stories about me. I sure she’ll ‘let the cat out of the bag’ and all my friends will know about me the mix of truth and lie (mainly lie!). Well, my tranquility and smile will be answer on all tricky questions about my sexual life and I’ll be never showing my intimate feelings!
It’s very difficult – to find the true friends and it’s so easy – to lose them! Maybe, I was mistaken thinking I have a good many friends. Now I have known – they’re only ‘buddies for parties’. I think the true friend always takes my part if something happens and he or she won’t tell about me nothing bad – only give countenance to me, saying “Anna, you’re right!” If I’m wrong, true friend will understand and tell me about my mistakes. But he will never be offending even if he doesn’t agree with my behavior or point of view on something.
This day was terrible. My phone was ringing without stopping as if it was my birthday. But it was ‘day of reckoning for sins’. All my friends were very puzzled with news about my moral fall with James. Oh, sure Kelly (his ex-girlfriend) told ‘confidentially’ all about it ‘for the public weal’ notifying about my ‘ignoble ability for using boyfriends of her best pals for dirty games’. Damned gossip, her words prompted everybody to break with me and only Lisa took my side. None of them listened to my interpretation of this story and at last I cut off my phone. Well, I thought, I have my PC and Internet and I’ll never stay alone!
